tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2575302647478559999.post821978789828059619..comments2014-03-20T18:25:15.678-04:00Comments on Diapers and a dream: Just a few thoughtsYanerishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16532655199852654389noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2575302647478559999.post-82728248333528698082012-12-08T00:11:28.775-05:002012-12-08T00:11:28.775-05:00You are a strong woman. All of your fears and doub...You are a strong woman. All of your fears and doubts are completely rational. Being honest with yourself about how you really feel is a special gift to have. Try to live in the moment. And you know with my boy that I have to believe it to say it. Its been 4 years and I still work on that. And spending time with him is different somewhat from my time with my 'heart healthy' kids. I just am trying to say that yes, things can and do happen. Look at me. And how I just keep going. I still cant believe sometimes I have 3 kids under 5 and with all my health issues I somehow keep up. I forgave myself about a year ago for all the 'failings' I perceived I had. All the guilt of not having everything nice and clean always and all the laundry done, etc. I was finally honest with myself as to what I can do, and not, and focus most energy on loving and playing and teaching these 3 people. Life is what it is. And since we only get the one, try to embrace every moment as it comes and even from the losses cherish the fact that you had little one inside you who is now waiting for her family in Heaven. When people ask 'how many kids do you have' some people include their lost pregnancies. So for myself, I technically have 6 children. But, got gives you what you can handle and even tho I have 3- God trusted me with a child with a fatal heart condition and I accepted that. I know you have lots of change coming, but you can do this. Yes it IS possible to nurse two babies at once lol yes money sometimes will not add up and you will find yourself overwhelmed. Be in that moment and love the time you have with them - and always lean on your friends and family for support. No question is too stupid or meltdown too dramatic. I probably wrote too much lol Love ya girl xoashley anoreply@blogger.com